A few days ago, I had an experience while meditating that offered a huge shift in perception. I had been in a still, peaceful state for about a half hour. A bold male voice spoke to me and said, “The self cannot be divided”.
As soon as these words were spoken, I had an experiential understanding in my whole being of exactly what they meant. The boundaries of self dissolved, and I was everywhere. It felt like I was not a person or an entity, but only awareness. I wasn’t localized in a body, and yet I could still feel sensations in my body. There was a noise within me, like a low frequency buzz, that somehow drowned out all other sound, even though it wasn’t loud. There was a soft glowing light everywhere that felt like it was solid. Almost like everything around me and within me was not actually moving at all, but as solid and motionless as a stone. YET, everything was fully alive and felt aware of me. I was aware of awareness aware of me. There was no outside or inside, There was empty vast, solid, light filled, conscious space that contained everything. It was sparking, deeply profound, beautiful.
It’s impossible to say how long it lasted, but it couldn’t have been more than a half hour. I came out of that experience with a feeling of union with all things. Even sitting here now, I can feel that solid oneness, that lack of space between things. As I look around the room, there are not separate things, but one thing, and I am part of it.
Looking at my hands, I know that they are connected to a body, but, I am not that body, and as a matter of fact, that body feels like it has very little to do with me. It’s not that I feel disconnected from the body, but more that I feel that there is no space within me or around me that differentiates me from everything else - including my body. Something moves me, and I have believed in the past that I was making choices to move my arms and legs, but in fact, I am not the animator. I can feel the presence of something so powerful that when I focus on it for even a moment, the breath leaves my body and I cannot inhale.
Not only is there no separation between my self and the world out there, but I AM the world out there, and the world out there is me. It is all awareness. I used to think that I was the aware thing in a room full of inanimate objects, but looking around me now, it all feels like awareness. Like a great mirror, I do not only define the world around me with my perception of it, but the surrounding world defines me, and without it I would not be. We are inseparable, myself and my lover, the infinite.
I’d love to hear your feelings and thoughts about any experiences you’ve had of oneness, and I’d love to know if you have any topics that you’d like me to talk about, so please comment below.
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